




Although there were moments in 2011 that I didn't know how I was going to make it through all this. The things I have seen my beautiful daughter go through and come out on the other side fighting and stronger then ever would take your breathe away. The nights when I would cry myself to sleep holding the icu pager in my hand praying it doesn't go off will always haunt me. Handing Raygen over for surgery after surgery and hearing her cry down the hallway breaks my heart. I look at Raygen and am amazed everyday that she is ours. We are so blessed. She is so strong and she has fought to live since the moment she was born. During all this I would always question the saying "God doesn't give you more then you can handle." and I'm not sure where I stand on this because there were so many moments when I know I couldn't do this but yet here I am and here is my daughter. Through out all of this my oldest Zoie suffered too. Knowing that I missed so much with her and that she had to worry about everything as well hurts me too. Zoie is an amazing little girl who is stronger then I ever thought and both my girls give me strength.
Hears to a better 2012 with no hospitals, lots of family time, Raygen eating by mouth, crawling, rolling over, maybe talking? Zoie having fun and lots of mother daughter days and family weekend get aways. I hope you all have a great 2012!
Thank you to everyone for all your love, support, and prayers during 2011 and to come.
God Bless you all! and Happy New Year!
ERIN
I so hope she continues to improve each day and will soon be doing all the things you are waiting for.
ReplyDeleteWishing you a Happy New Year and many blessings in 2012
Love and hugs
Aunt Carol