Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Go away cold...

So I mentioned earlier that Raygen has been fighting a cold and yes she is still fighting it.  Last night had to be the worst.  She sounded horrible when I laid her down for bed last night.  She was so stuffed up that she had a hard time breathing laying down and kept trying to breathe through her nose which she couldn't.  She woke up a lot, neither one of us slept very well.  Raygen would try so hard to sleep but then she would cough, then gag, then cry and the whole process just went on and on.  Finally at 4am I decided we would just get up.  We watched some Sesame Street and she started to sound a little better.  Something about night time with kids, it's always worse. 
So now I'm left with the big question: When do I take her back to the doctor?  She has no fever (thank God,) she isn't throwing up and she seems to be tolerating her feeds.  She is just so congested.  She just finished a round of antibiotics last week, but I don't think they really helped anyway.  I guess my gut is telling me to try using our humidifier tonight and see if that helps.  If not then I guess we will be going to the doctor tomorrow.
Please say a prayer for my girl.  I hope she gets the much needed rest she needs tonight and that I need as well.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Seattle PT

So we took Raygen to her PT evaluation in Seattle Thursday.  She is so funny and she is so cute to watch in the car. 
Now that she sits forward she seems way happier and a lot more social. 
She was chatting away the whole time. 
 She also loves to chew on her toes, lol!  The girl is flexible.
 Zoie gave her a piece of licorice that she played with for awhile, but she didn't put it in her mouth like we were hoping.

My daughter after tutor. 



So the therapist said exactly what we know.  She needs therapy.  She stated that the sooner we teach Raygen how to do things a "right" way it will be easier.  I know we need to do therapy and I know it's just another appointment I will fit into are already busy schedule because I know Raygen needs it.  Raygen is teaching herself how to do things "her way" or the "easy way" and we need to help and encourage her to do things using her right side sooner then later.  The therapist was a very nice lady and she gave me some good contact number for people that are closer to us and I will call them next week to see when we can get started. 
We also scheduled her MRI's for April 10th.  April will be a busy month for us with the MRI and all the follow up appointments that will follow it. 
I'm so excited to be going to Jamie's Heart Foundation Gala next Friday.  It's such a great charity and I can't wait to bid on some auction money and help raise money for a good cause.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Most days...

Most days I stay so busy with work, Zoie, house chores, taking care of Raygen with meds, food and the normal baby things that I'm able not to feel scared, till bed time.  Something about getting Raygen ready for bed that my fears set in.  I love giving her a bath and watching her play and laugh and I just realize my daughter is sick.  She is fighting a cold now for the last few weeks.  Little bugs last way longer for her then they do you and I and it's always so scary.  You never know when you could end up back in the hospital.  Knock on wood.  But the bigger fears also set in.  The fear of another heart surgery, the fear of more test and pokes and the major big scary fears that we don't speak of.  I'm getting ready to schedule her MRI and I think that's why I'm in a sad mood.  I know she will have to be sedated, again, and I know it will be a hard day for her.  We have also decided to do and MRI of her heart at the same time so we can get a good look at her glenn procedure and hopefully her stent.  I know each day I am so blessed to have my daughter, both my daughters that I try not to think further ahead then today, but sometimes the fear just makes me want to scream.  I am an organized freak and I like to have things done my way and I will work my  butt off to make it all happen, but this is something I have no control over.  I have no control over my daughter's heart and I think that's what scares me the most.  Fear of the unknown.  Fear of tomorrow of today of the next few hours.  I don't allow myself to pity my daughter or our family because we are so blessed and lucky in so many ways, but I do allow myself moments to reflect and I look to God to help pull me through my sadness and pray that he helps me deal with my fear.  I know I have no control, but I know he has ALL the control.

So today we went to the GI Doc and tomorrow to Seattle for Raygen's PT evaluation and then I guess I have no reason not to schedule her MRI.  We finally heard back from the blood doctor today and she did say Raygen could have blood draws and iv's on her right side just no pic or central lines.  This is good news (never good that she has to be poked) because she hasn't been able to have pokes on her right side since before the Norwood so hopefully she has a few good veins on that side and the next time she needs an iv or blood draw maybe they could do it with 1 poke not 12.  Today Raygen weighted in at 23lbs 13.3oz and is 2' 7.3inches long.  They upped her calories so hopefully she will start gaining weight and not loosing.  This is also a concern for me.  Weight loss is never a good sign so hopefully higher calories with her increased activity will work and she will gain.

I will update tomorrow when we get home to tell you all what PT says.  I am thinking they will want to brace her right hand so she will have to start keeping it open instead of always in a fist, but I really have no idea.

Thank you all for all your prayers and support.  They are always so needed and very much appreciated.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Monster Club House

Raygen loves this show on Sesame Street.  I had to share a couple cute video's so you could all hear her wonderful laugh.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Wearing our heart shirts!

I love the heart shirts we purchased from Mended Little Hearts. 
Raygen's shirt says "Official Member of the Zipper Club."


Mine says "I believe in Miracles.  Ask me about mine." 
I wish I would have gotten a picture of Zoie today because she also wore hers.  Zoie's shirt says "I love someone with CHD."

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Mommy Hot Spot


I am honored to be February blog of the month at Mommy Hot Spot.  Thank you for the honor Angie. 
 
Please keep the parents of baby Grayson in your prayers today.  He was born with HLHS and passed away last night after chest closure from his Norwood.  I have never met this family but I hold all heart families and their children close to my heart.  It is such a long journey our CHD babies have to travel and it's so sad when one becomes an angel so soon. 
 
Heart Facts:
1. Survival after the first stage (Norwood surgery for HLHS babies) is more than 75%.
2. Single ventricle heart defects, such as hypoplastic left heart syndrome, are among the most complex and challenging forms of congenital heart defects to treat.
3.Congenital heart defects are approximately 60 times more prevalent than childhood cancer.
4.Genetic or chromosomal abnormalities cause some heart defects. Other risk factors include maternal smoking during pregnancy, maternal obesity, maternal diabetes and maternal infections such as rubella
5. Congenital heart defects are the most common type of birth defect, affecting approximately 40,000 babies in the United States each year.
 
Find more heart facts and watch amazing videos at CHOP Heart Center

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Raygen's 1st Week 2011

Since this week is CHD week I wanted to share Raygen's Norwood story.  This was the first time I held Raygen right after she was born.  I got to hold her about 10 minutes before they took her to prepare her to transport to Seattle Children's. 
 Raygen in her Carbon Dioxide Tent.  Raygen had a hard time regulating her Oxygen so she spent about 4 days in her little tent prior to her surgery.  We were not able to hold her for long periods of time because she needed to be in the tent. 

 Here is Raygen after her surgery.  Her chest was open for about 5 days.  During this time she slept mostly.  Of course we couldn't hold her, but we did talk to her, rub her head, and hold her hands.  We rarely left her side.
 One of those precious moments with her eyes open.  She is amazing.
 Raygen after her chest closure.


 After Raygen's chest was closed and she was taken off the ventilator and we were moved to the floor.  She was about a month old.
 Zoie and my dad holding Raygen for the 1st time after her Norwood.
After we were on the floor for a few days it was discovered that both Raygen's vocal cords were paralyzed.  Raygen ended up being rushed to ICU about a week on the floor with very high CO2 levels.  That was the closest we came to loosing our girl.  Raygen ended up having to have a trach till her vocal cords recovered. 
We got one tough girl!!
Here is Raygen's Christmas pictures.  I can't believe she will be two on March 23rd. 
In honor of her birthday I have designed a shirt at Cafe Press and hope to show you all soon and offer you the chance to purchase one.
Remember if you know someone who has CHD or has a CHD child give them a big hug this week.
 
1 in every 100 babies are born with CHD.


Sunday, February 10, 2013

CHD Facts from Mended Little Hearts:



What is a congenital heart defect?
 Congenital heart defects (CHDs) are problems with the heart’s structure that are present at birth.
 Common examples include holes in the inside walls of the heart and narrowed or leaky valves. In
more severe forms of CHDs, blood vessels or heart chambers may be missing, poorly formed,
and/or in the wrong place.


How common are congenital heart defects?
 CHDs are the most common birth defects. CHDs occur in almost 1% of births.
 An approximate 100-200 deaths are due to unrecognized heart disease in newborns each year.
These numbers exclude those dying before diagnosis.
 Nearly 40,000 infants in the U.S. are born each year with CHDs.
 CHDs are as common as autism and about twenty-five times more common than cystic fibrosis.
 Approximately two to three million individuals are thought to be living in the United States with
CHDs. Because there is no U.S. system to track CHDs beyond early childhood, more precise
estimates are not available.
 Thanks to improvements in survival, the number of adults living with CHDs is increasing. It is now
believed that the number of adults living with CHDs is at least equal to, if not greater than, the
number of children living with CHDs.


What is the health impact of congenital heart defects?
 CHDs are the most common cause of infant death due to birth defects.
 Approximately 25% of children born with a CHD will need heart surgery or other interventions to
survive.
 Over 85% of babies born with a CHD now live to at least age 18. However, children born with
more severe forms of CHDs are less likely to reach adulthood.
 Surgery is often not a cure for CHDs. Many individuals with CHDs require additional operation(s)
and/or medications as adults.
 People with CHDs face a life-long risk of health problems such as issues with growth and eating,
developmental delays, difficulty with exercise, heart rhythm problems, heart failure, sudden
cardiac arrest or stroke.
 People with CHDs are now living long enough to develop illnesses like the rest of the adult
population, such as high blood pressure, obesity and acquired heart disease.
 CHDs are now the most common heart problem in pregnant women.


What causes congenital heart defects?
 Most causes of CHDs are unknown. Only 15-20% of all CHDs are related to known genetic
conditions.
 Most CHDs are thought to be caused by a combination of genes and other risk factors, such as
environmental exposures and maternal conditions. Because the heart is formed so early in
pregnancy, the damage may occur before most women know they are pregnant.
 Environmental exposures that may be related to risk of having a CHD include the mother’s diet
and certain chemicals and medications. Maternal diabetes is a recognized cause of CHDs.
Maternal obesity, smoking, and some infections also may raise the risk of having a baby with a
CHD. Preventing these risk factors before a pregnancy is crucial.
 A baby’s risk of having a CHD is increased by 3 times if the mother, father, or sibling has a CHD.


What are the health care access and cost challenges related to congenital heart defects?
 In 2009, the hospital cost for roughly 27,000 hospital stays for children treated primarily for CHDs
in the U.S. was nearly $1.5 billion. In the same year, hospital cost for roughly 12,000 hospital
stays of adults treated primarily for CHD was at least $280 million.
 A significant number of adults with CHD in the U.S. report having problems obtaining insurance
and coverage for specialized care.
 Compared to the general population, adults with CHD have 3 – 4 times higher rates of
Emergency Room visits, hospitalizations, and Intensive Care Unit stays.
 Fewer than 10% of adults with CHDs in the U.S. who need care from specialty adult CHD centers
are receiving this recommended care.

You can find all these fact and more at Mended Little Hearts

HLHS Fact: 1 in every 4,344 births are born with HLHS about 960 babies a year.






Saturday, February 9, 2013

Sinus Infection

So yesterday we took Raygen to the doctor and the poor thing has a sinus infection.  We decided to go ahead and treat it with an antibiotic since she has been getting worse of the last few days and I don't want it to develop into something more.  She is having a hard time sleeping due to the coughing and she has her moments where all she wants is mom to hold her and love on her.  My poor girl.  She had a rough day yesterday going to the doctor at 8am then right after heading to Olympia for her synagise shot.  I hope by tomorrow we will start to see improvement.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Liebster Award...



Cari from http://faithsmomsblog.blogspot.com nominated me for the Liebster Award-Special Needs Edition.  I want to thank Cari very much for doing so.  We have been having a very stressful few weeks and this nomination made my day. Thank you Cari for all your support and I love getting comments from you.  Thank you again so very much.
So the first step when your nominated is to share 11 random facts about yourself so here I go:
 
1. My favorite candy is Junior Mints.
2. I love coffee.
3. My mom and my sister are my best friends.
4. I would love to run a marathon.
5. My favorite movie is Steele Magnolias
6. I love Mexican food.
7. I listen to country music.
8. I love accounting.
9. I am a dog lover.
10. My favorite TV show right now is Downton Abbey.
11. I would live in Yoga pants if I could.

Then Cari (who nominated me) asked me these 11 questions:
1. What has been your best resource as a special-needs parent? Other moms.  Early on when I was pregnant with Raygen I joined a support group.  Mended Little Hearts and I went to a couple meetings and met face to face with other heart moms.  They have been everything to me.  They give me so much support and understand the emotional roller coaster you are on.

2. How did your extended family react to the news of your child’s diagnosis? My family was great.  They all prayed for Raygen and I think everyone deep down was hoping it was all a mistake and Raygen would be born healthy.  My family was very supportive and I always had family call me after appointments to see how things were going. (Thank you Bristen and Nat)

3. Is there anything you wished you knew now that you didn’t know in the early stages of your child’s diagnosis? This is a tough one.  I don't think there is anything someone could have told me or that I could have read about that would have prepared me for Raygen's first few months of life.  The only thing I wish is that someone would have told me to be more pro-active about Raygen's care very early on when she was in the hospital and trust yourself and your gut feeling don't just do everything the doctors tell you to do.  You know your baby better then anyone.

4. What prayers do you feel God has answered for your child? She is here.  Sleeping as I type in her crib.  That is the biggest prayer answered.  She has been through 2 major open heart surgeries and so much trauma in her 2 years and she is still here.  

5. How do you REALLY feel about being a special-needs parent? Lonely, Scared, and it's so hard.  I love being Raygen's mom but it is a full time job having a baby plus keeping track of feeds, meds, doctor appointments and everything else it can be overwhelming at times, but oooooo so worth it.  I wouldn't trade it for anything.

6. What or who has been your biggest source of support/encouragement? First, my husband, we are a team and we both look to each other first in making decisions about Raygen's care and he is my rock.  Next has to be our parents.  My parents and Randy's have been great.  Always there whenever we need them.  Also, my extended family.  My sister is always there to help with Zoie and just to chat, my cousin Bristen is always there and also my friend Natalie.  My wonderful friend Sarah (who also helps me with the blog) is always there for me.  Sarah came and spent time with me at Childrens when I needed her the most and she is always sending me inspirational emails which make my day.  I love ya Sarah, don't know what I would do without you.

7. What do you do for fun? I love to meet my girlfriends for drinks when I can.  I also love to go get my hair done.  Reading is also fun for me.  I'm pretty exciting, lol!

8. How has being a special-needs parent affected your marriage (or other significant relationships?) I think it has made my marriage stronger.  I feel closer to my husband then I ever had before.  He truly is my rock.  I also feel like I am closer to my parents which I love.  I think having a special needs child can affect your friendships the most.  Your time is all about keeping your child safe and away from illness so around cold and flu season we have to avoid and that is always hard.

9. What hopes do you have for your child’s future? I hope she is happy.  The best part about Raygen is she doesn't know she is different.  I love her happy spirit and she just has this light about her that brightens everyday.  

10. What is something you wish your child can do that he/she can’t do? I wish Raygen could crawl or walk.  I know someday she will, but I know this would make her happy.  She loves to explore and I would be more comfortable if she could walk there instead of roll there.  

11. What is something good that has come out of having a child with special needs? Meeting some amazing, strong women and moms and their wonderful children.  There is a special bond special needs moms share and it's an amazing support group.  I love being able to share Raygen's story and help bring awareness about CHD.  I would love to raise money for charity and be able to help others how they have helped me.

Rules of the Liebster Award: The Liebster Award is designed specifically for small blogs (less than 200 followers) and is a fun way to get to know other bloggers. First you post 11 random facts about yourself. Then you answer then 11 questions your nominator asked you. Then you nominate 11 other people and ask them 11 new questions. In your response, you make sure to personally thank (and link) the person who nominated you. Also, be sure to insert the pink Liebster Award image somewhere in your post!

My 11 questions are:
1.) How has having a special needs child changed your daily lifestyle?
2.) Have you ever had a doctor/nurse that you didn't trust to care for your child?
3.) How has having a special needs child affected your friendships?
4.) How has having a special needs child changed your travel routine? (Vacations, trips to town, Grandma's house etc.)
5.) What is the one item your child can not leave the house without?
6.) What is the one item you can not leave the house without?
7.) How has blogging helped you?
8.) How has your child's brothers/sisters dealt with having a special needs sister/brother?
9.) Looking back what is the one thing you would tell yourself before your child was born?
10.) Did you "Google" your child's diagnosis early on in pregnancy?

I would like to nominate the following 11 blogs:
 

If you do participate please leave a comment in my comment section so I can learn more about you and the special needs blogs you love to read. 

Remember tomorrow is FRIDAY and PLEASE WEAR RED FOR RAYGEN AND ALL OTHER CHD BABIES.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Change...


Mended Little Hearts has these great T-Shirts for CHD awareness and since this is heart month I thought I would share some of them.  I am placing my order today for some.  I know I'm a little behind but work and life have been crazy lately.  I have absolutely no free time at all it seems.  I sneak updating my blog in through out my day.  You can purchase these shirts on their website by clicking here.... Mended Little Hearts 
So Raygen has had a few changes this week one especially to her feed.  I have been mixing her peptum jr with pedialite and she seemed to be tolerating being off the baby formula till I started mixing the petum jr with water.  We have had a few very long miserable nights.  I have also been worried if Raygen has been coming down with a cold.  She has sounded junky and thought maybe that could be another reason why she hasn't been sleeping. 
I called her dietitian yesterday and we decided to go back to mixing her peptum with pedialite to see if that gives her any relief.  It's so hard when Raygen is so tired and all she wants to do is sleep, but can't get comfortable enough to do it.  I just want her to sleep because if she is coming down with a little bug then her not sleeping won't help that at all. 
 Last night was a little better.  She still woke up a lot but I was able to get her back to sleep much easier then the previous nights so I'm hoping this was her issue.  She did have a puke on Saturday and felt warm and looked like she didn't feel good at all, but I think lack of sleep played a huge roll in that.  We also officially turned Raygen to face forward in her car seat and I wonder if she was also a little car sick.
You must think I'm crazy, but when Raygen is acting different then her "normal" I have to find the reason.  It drives me in sane.  We did have a long week with several trips North so Raygen spent a lot of time in the car so we could have thrown her system off.  It's so important when you have a heart baby to notice the smallest change in them.  The sooner you spot something or caught something the better off they are.  You can see how my life can get stressful.  I am a worrier and my poor husband gets several calls a day when I feel like something is up. 
She seems better today so hopefully tonight after being on her old food recipe she will get a whole night sleep.  Trust me we both need a whole night sleep. 

She is such a sweet girl. 


Please keep Raygen in your prayers.  My worries could all be nothing and I may have found the fix, but with all the cold and flu going around I get freaked out very easily.  A cold for a heart baby is nothing easy and always scary.